Sunday, July 20, 2008

Thailand and interior design?

Hello to all. Since my last post we have finally had a few cold, but very sunny days, so I am happy to say that the washing has finally dried, but only after it weathered a hail storm on the line. I have also regained a bit of the sanity that had been lost in the rain clouds. I guess all those years of Phoenix sunshine have made it very hard for me to weather the clouds.

To all of my mum friends out there I have a "what would you do" question. Here it is... My VERY dear friend Bethany is turning 30 this year and on a kind of last minute whim she has decided to go to Thailand with just the girls to celebrate and I have been invited to go. We will be going in roughly 4 weeks, we will be gone for a week, it will cost me a $1000 and I need to get my just expired passport renewed. My lovely mother-in-law said she would fly over for the week to watch the kids and my dear hubbie has said as long as we can get the money together he would love for me to go...

So here is my dilema. I am always the practical one and think well if we some how manage to get the $1000 together shouldn't I put it towards paying bills or taking a chunck out of the car loan? Should I really leave my family for a week to go frollicking around Thailand? or is this an adventure of a lifetime and should I seize the opportunity? Will I regret it forever if I don't go? Will I come back refreshed and a better mum and wife for the time away? I will be honest it's not like we really have that sort of money just to spend, but should we find the money and spend it anyway? Won't it be the most amazing experience, and won't it be SOOOO much fun. All these questions I am sure all mums would ask themselves in this situation .... Would you be the "adult" and pay off some bills, or would you grab life by the horns and fret about the bills another day? Would you leave your babies, or would you stay home and keep chugging along in the responsibilities of motherhood? At this point I am getting my passport renewed and trying to find the money. To be honest these 2 things in themselves might just make the decsion for me if I can't get them sorted, but even if I do get them sorted should I go? So I ask you, what would you do?

So while you are ponering that I will drop anothe log on the fire and let the whole world (or at least the 5 people who read my blogs:O) in on another decision I have made... and that is that I am applying to go back to school starting February to get my interior design degree. I put in my application in a couple of weeks and then will have to have a portfolio interview shortly after that. So here are my plans. Starting in February Heidi starts kindy which is 4 half days a week and Judah is already in full time school. So I am hoping next year to go to school part time and then the following year when Wesley is in kindy to start full time. I have already been to school for my teaching degree but never finished the last year as I came to the realisation that just because I loved children didn't mean I wanted to be a teacher. It's a 4 year course and at this point I am working around the idea that none of my previous credits will transfer even though I do have my fingers crossed that maybe some of my Art History Classes will full fill elective credits. The whole four years is already laid out and after looking at all the classes there isn't a single one that I'm not jut itching to take. I have such a passion for colours and fabrics and all of it that I just feel like for the first time this little flickering light inside of me has been given a chance to shine.

As some of you know I love to quilt and my very favourite part of quilting is picking out the fabrics. I love going into fabric stores and, as my mum says, "fondling fabric". I just love walking around dreaming of all the possibilities of the colours and patterns and texture. So as you can probabbly imagine doing that for a living really is a dream job for me :O) I am very excited am so looking forward to opening this new chapter and seeing how I blossom and change with this new challenge. I know that it will be hard to juggle things at home and there will be things that I am going to have to give up to go for this dream, but I have such a peace and excitment about it that I know it is the right thing to do.

What a year of change this year has been. A real time for reflection and it's only July!!! I wonder what the second half of the year has to hold ?!?! Hope all is well with you all. Lots of love from my little pondering corner :O) xoxox

3 comments:

RachelM said...

Im going to be totally partial since ive been to Thailand:) I really think that you should try to go on the trip if you can. Not only will it be a cold weather break, but just a general mommy detox! I always say that its important to be away from your kids every once in awhile so that you can miss them. Ill pray for the money to show up! What a fun trip! Im so jealous!!!!

Unknown said...

Regarding the trip: GO!!!! Yes I think you would regret it if you didn't take this opportunity, you've already gotten the blessing from your husband and the offered help from family! So if you can get the money together by all means go for it! You will of course miss your babies but like you said it will make you that much better of a mommy when you return relaxed and refreshed. Let us know what happens!

As for school, maybe try not to lay down the whole 4 years, just take it one semester at a time and maybe that will be less overwhelming? Good for you for going back, I can't wait until I can!

Sara said...

Go, Go, Go...I think that this would be such an opportunity to go and reconnect with you. Being at home full time can wear you out so fast and the days just slip by. Taking a break to get away would do you so good. If you are supposed to go, the money will show up, and the money to pay bills will show up later. You should especially go if you are going back to school, which I think is awesome, because if an opportunity were to present itself later while you are in school you might not be able to even dream of going. So I say if you can take the trip, go, have fun, re-energize, destress, and prepare for the upcoming exciting times that await...love you!!!